thanks Sammy. Seriously.

October 05, 2011 by ericcroyle

I am 30 years old, I have been playing in bands and writing music since I was 15. I played in some bands that got some attention regionally in different areas but nothing that ever really turned into anything. I love playing music, its all I ever wanted to do. I turned 24 got married and by 25 I was preparing for my oldest daughter. I wasn't done making music but I was done trying to "make it". I got a real job, focused on that and raising my kid, I kept writing songs and recording but that was it, I didn't join any more bands.

Over the next five years a lot of weird shit happened. I have never been well off, I didn't come from money but I was never poor. In 2008 the place I was working food went under. I got another job, got laid off. I got another job, an awful job selling radio advertising, it sucked I was there for nine months and got a job as a manger for an IT department. I was a terrible manager, I had no idea what I was doing and after a month I was let go. That was May 1st of this year.

I fell into a real bad funk. I started drinking til I passed out every night, I didn't leave my house and I was done with music. I didn't want to kill myself, I wasn't suicidal but I wanted to die. I thought if I died, like in a car wreck or from drinking, my wife and kids (I have three now) would be better off without me and move on. I was in a bad way.

Eventually I ran out of money and couldn't even afford booze anymore so I quit drinking, but I would just sit there, dazed out, day after day. Last month I got a new job and I am making ends meet but I was still depressed and didn't want to do anything. Two weeks ago someone said, "Hey man, you should read 'Red', that book Sammy Hagar wrote". I always liked Sammy more than DLR, I loved Mas Tequila and I always liked 55. When I wasn't drinking Maker's Mark or Kraken, I would drink Cabs whenever I could afford it but I never considered myself a huge Sammy fan. Hell, I am an encyclopedia of music trivia but I couldn't tell you a single thing about Sammy. I needed a new book and decided "what the hell, I'll try 'Red'.

I read the entire book in 3 days. I went back and read it again. For the first time in three years I was inspired. I doubt anyone will ever even notice this blog but I want to personally thank Sammy Hagar for that. I am hopeful when I wake up in the morning, I started writing again and I just...feel good.

I haven't been this inspired in a long time. Thank you Sammy Hagar.

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 2  Redhead Comments

timothiefielder's picture

Good on ya mate! The book had the exact same affect on me, its nice that there are actually people out there like Sammy, who you can take there story and start getting excited about being alive.

I'm sure there are plenty of Redheads out there will to lend an ear so trust there's people who care about you, who for lack of a better word, don't know you.

Redheads stick together!

Take it easy man!

51504sam's picture

Bro, read you post, I think a lot of us have been where you are! Me, drugs for 17 years, finally kicked it, felt like dieing a lot of times, but things will get better!

One thing you can do, is go buy a Sammy album, along w/ the book. Sammy's music is very uplifting. Check out Dreams on the 5150 album...

Hang in there bro, your kids will appreciate you more w/your hard work, they need you! Keep on keepin on brother!